I do...

I love you
I love you
I love you

... I do. No exclamation points, or anything like that because it'll take away and limit how I feel. This isn't another poem, this is specifically to you. I don't want any metaphors, anecdotes or any other form of the English language to dilute what I'm trying to tell you. This isn't up for discussion either. I've been holding it in for 3 weeks now, wrestling with how I want to tell you, what will be a cool way to impress you with the delivery, and if I should even tell you at all. Normal occasions I wouldn't dare even think of insulting the weight in which these words hold by simply posting about it. I'd make sure I was face to face & just tell you whenever my heart said to tell you. But this time... this go 'round I can't. Well I can, but I won't. Because I love you I accept all that comes with that, including the sacrifices that must be made. So I won't. Unless my heart is as overwhelmed as when I 1st realized that I was in love with you. But even then I'll be discreet and make sure that I'm close, looking into your eyes and making sure that you know I'm talking to you and you only... then whisper it. I'll only whisper it because that's the only tone of voice that messages don't get diluted. Nothing is assumed by the tone, and the words spoken hold all the weight.

I'm not at all concerned about the feeling being reciprocated. I just need you to know how I feel. Without even knowing the taste of your lips, I know you have the best kiss. Everything in my day reminds me of you. Even when I try to force myself to think of something else, another thing that has nothing to do with us reminds me of you. I've consulted with GOD to make sure nothing of lust interfered... all things removed, I still love you. So when I tell you I love you, I'm doing it with an clear heart & mind.

I have no clue of how we're connected, if there's even a possibility of another lifetime or anything like that. And as intriguing as the possibilities sound, I don't care. I only know the woman that GOD has put in front of me, and I only know what I feel now. I love you. I'm in love with you. When did I know... that day we we're cooking in the kitchen. It was a little after we finished. I had returned to the couch... I happened to look up the same time you did and we shared a smile. It's surely not the 1st smile shared, but that was when I knew. Thought it was only fair you knew when, since I'm telling you how I feel.

BIG P.s. This is just for you to know. I don't expect any discussion, for the sake of making you feel awkward, or anything more than you just knowing. Of course if you want to I'm more than willing. I think you knew the other day that I was talking about you. THEN YOU GO AND DO SOMETHING GREAT & SWEET LIKE THAT, drawing me while I work. I've always wanted to draw or paint you. I think I may have asked you before... anyway this isn't one of those I love you, but I'm sad I can't have you type letters. NO, this is a I'm the happiest guy in the world because I do love you. No other sides to it. Just happy that you make me feel this way and happy that I do... love you

One Hundred Forty Three

I keep having this urge to tell you one hundred forty three. Although, I'm not sure. Well no, I know I'm sure. The feelings support it. The butterflies are always at play when my eyes meet yours,and your touch puts me at peace while keeping me aroused. I continue to soak up the words we spill in conversation.

I long to taste your lips and learn your kiss, and when we're together I always get close to letting my hands slip and fall to your waist, pulling you close and whispering, hello gorgeous. I'd even settle for a kiss on the cheek as we pull away from a long hug. But I know one day I'd purposely brush my cheek too far back and let my lips fall on yours, hoping that as my lips touch yours, you'll share in that longing and understand the satisfaction it brings. I just hope when our lips meet you'll feel what I do, and with your eyes closes see what I see in you.

I just hope that as I purposely miss your cheek and kiss your lips that you'll trust me enough to let go and let me fulfill your longing desires, and allow me to take you a few places that your imagination hadn't reached yet.

I just hope that as I purposely miss your cheek and kiss your lips that you know this isn't me chasing a lustful desire.

I just hope that as I purposely miss your cheek and kiss your lips that you really understand that I... one four three.

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